well there is another issue that i was borthered with. it's a friend. i dunno why, but the reality hit me today and i felt like i have lost a friend. nothing new considering the fact that i lost many friends anyway. but she is different. i dunno why but i always associate her with haveing to go through one of the darkest period of my life, being there to provide joy and laughter.it may sound cliche but unless it happens to you, you will not know how it feels.i lost esther, and it took me a while to stand up again. and now it's you. i'm really sorry about things that happened in the past, but it was all like a bad nightmare that i keep running away from. seems like i'm running back now. dun get me wrong, i'm really happy with her now, and all i want is for us to stay as friends. no rubbish no other thoughts. it is just plain simple. but it seems so hard to state that bounderies. sometimes, one get blinded with things that we see. you know why i broke down, cause it's hard for the person i love to even accept that you are a friend and i want to prove it to her that we can. we shared so much in the past that i dun wanna lose you. and everytime i get closer to my goal of becoming friends, it will scrmble in my face. and seriously i dun understand why it's so difficult. good to know that you are happy. she is a good girl so take good care of her. maybe what a friend said was true, me and you are simply just good friends that had stepped over the bounderies... i'm not asking for much. your things are packed and are ready to be collected or sent.
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